Thoughts on having it all

I have been consumed by this discussion.

For a time, I would say that I had it all and it vanished in one week. I had a husband, a house, and a BMW. I practiced law and spent time on Nantucket, Cape Cod, and in Maine.

Then, from one June Tuesday to the next, I sold my house, quit my job, went to court for my divorce, and moved in with my aging parents. I didn't even have a car, as my husband took the BMW.

My all was all gone.

Years later, I wonder if that was the all for me. Perhaps I had it all, mixed up that is. Currently, I have pretty much, and I don't attempt to decide whether it's all or not. It's my all right now- I have it and I give it.

I have a second husband, a small house, and a 9 year old car. I also have an 8 year old son and a job. I spend most of my time close to home. I have time and I make time, most significantly for my 92 year old mother and my running. Right now, this is my all and it's enough.

As a 48 year old woman who sometimes feels like I've had it all and done it all, I know that my all is not someone else's all. I feel fortunate that I can change what my all is and still have it.

These thoughts will continue, but right now it's time to stop thinking at all and do.