Mind murmur - a woman torn

I am torn between and among so much, and I am being torn apart by emotions. 

All is well, but all is difficult and trying.

Today was another sandwich Sunday, which, as often is the case, was packed with tending to my eight year-old Son and ninety-two year-old Mom.   

I am grateful for my weekly visits with my Mom, but each time my heart breaks  a bit.  She's the same, but she's different.  She's well, but she's sick.  She remembers, then she doesn't.  Sometimes, it's hard to see her, and it's always hard to leave her. 

Each week brings something different that needs to be addressed.  It's increasingly impossible to imagine what my visit will be like. 

Today, we went out for the littlest but of time to do an errand.  My Mom said, "It's nice to get out."  I wanted to cry, but of course I didn't.  It's not done.

Upon arriving home, my Son started right in.  He wanted to fit a full day's activities into the few hours left before his bedtime.  We had a challenging week, so I wanted to simply settle down and get ready for what promises to be another busy week, as each typically is.  Really I just wanted to be alone, but that was not going to happen.  Thankfully, my Son settled down so that we could enjoy some reading and piano time together. 

Presently, I am reminded that my Son is like me.  I have a day's worth of things that I want to fit into the few remaining hours.  I am not sure yet what will get done, but I am glad simply to be seated with my feet up for the first time since this day began fifteen hours ago.

Well, another sandwich Sunday is done.  For these days, done is success.

In keeping with my attempt to end each day on a positive note, I will relish successful completion of another Smart Coach training week.  I am four weeks into my twelve week training program.  My decision to run what will be my fifth half marathon is revealing itself to be one of my better recent decisions.

Until....

mind murmur - what's happening....

Words are difficult lately, and, therefore, so too is living by the letter.  Accordingly, my mantra changes to stay true, which will be developed in time.  Those two words alone are intriguing, and when put together they are powerful.

Instead of words, my focus has been on images, thus explaining my decreased focus here and my increased focus on Pinterest and Instagram. 

Images are touching me as my words abandon me.  I can and will go with it....

Pieces are being put together for my next half marathon, about which I grow increasingly excited.

What you want happens

My run didn't happen until almost 8:00 tonight, but it did happen!  For that, I am grateful.

Mind Murmur -how companies differ

I can't stop thinking about how two Rhode Island companies differ so significantly, specifically Alex and Ani and 38 Studios.  It is amazing to consider what Rhode Island gave to each of these companies, and what Rhode Island has received from each.  Alex and Ani has been growing and growing, while giving and giving.  I am not sure what 38 Studios did, except take.  I could go on and on, but....  Currently, how many in Rhode Island are benefiting from each of these companies? 

Steady start

Three days down for this month with three different and fulfilling workouts. Day 1: run in the city. Day 2: xtrain at the gym. Day 3: bike ride with my Son. What will today bring? Decision will be made after the little league game is done. Perhaps it will be time at the gym where I can gain more motivation by watching these fabulous olympic athletes.

Love where you live

I keep thinking that I should be somewhere else -- at times personally, professionally, and physically.  Instead, I have to love where I live on each of these levels.  It all suits me -- my home, my family, my work, my body, my interests, and my more. 

My Walsh Wanderings do not have to be far at all....  

New Month New Method

Once again, I am not sure where my time is being spent, which is becoming an ever more frequent occurrence.  Overall, things are good, so I simply accept the loss of time.  In fact, it's not really lost, it's just differently used.

A new month begins today, and with it will come a new method for me.  I hope to have a different approach to time.  With that intention came immediate implementation.  This morning, after dropping my Son at camp, I went for a fabulous run in the city.  I wasn't so fast, but done was such a great feeling! 

I feel so much better in so many ways when I exercise.  This month, I want it to be so high on my priority list.  Here's to hoping that I can succeed in this method.